Thursday, November 6, 2008
Ella Grace
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Crazy Times Update
I never had any idea what real physical pain was until last week. The ruptured disc in my back had deteriorated to the point that it was compressing over 50% of the sciatic nerve on my left side. I've always had very high pain tolerance so the fact that I was completely immobillized says a lot. The doctor said he didn't know how I had been functioning for the past two months. The funny part is, on Tuesday afternoon about 2:30 I woke up from a nap and had zero pain. So now I was all freakin' out because it didn't hurt but I was about to let them cut open my back and mess with major nerves. Turns out it was a good thing. Surgery ended up taking twice as long as intended. They found that I had two bone spurs and removed a piece of the disc the size of a quarter, apparently that's really big. Obviously immediately following the procedure I didn't feel too hot. Anesthesia will do that. It seems that it's all out of my system now and I'm feeling pretty good. Here's hoping Ella Grace will wait another couple weeks so I can actually be semi-helpful! Amy has been a wonderful nurse. Putting up with my sorry attitude at times is enough to earn her a couple extra stars in her crown.
As for Amy and Ella Grace, they are doing as well as can be expected. Amy's about ready to pop. I am pretty well convinced that as soon as she stops taking the meds that are keeping the contractions at bay Ella Grace will decide it's time. I'm also still not convinced she isn't further along than the doctors have said. There's really not too much else to report on that end.
I also want to say thank you to everyone who has been praying for us and taking care of us. We are so blessed to have such incredible family and friends. Please keep praying for us, for Amy to have patience with the belly and for me to do the right things it will take to heal the fastest and most completely. (I'm a little stubborn) Thank you again for your prayers!!!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Crazy Times
End of July I threw out my back. As of today I now know it's one herniated disc, one ruptured. I thought it was getting better but suddenly it wasn't. I should find out Friday if I need surgery. Perfect timing since it seems Ella Grace will be here sooner than expected. As far as that goes, Amy started having contractions last week, two months early. So now she's home on bed rest.
I can't get off the floor because of the searing pain and Amy's not allowed to do anything out of fear the baby might be too early. We are quite the pitiful pair. Anyway, I just wanted to ask for prayers from anyone who might read this. No worries though, God's got it under control. He always does!!!
Friday, July 18, 2008
WOW! ARE YOU SERIOUS!?!
Do you ever wonder why God would want to bless you in ways you never thought possible?
In the past three days I have found out that we're having a baby girl (Ella Grace is her beautiful name!) and I have been given the job that I have always wanted. Is it just me or does it seem like I have been given soooooooooooo much more than I deserve?
I said in my initial post and titled this blog saying that the only thing we can plan for is to be surprised. Guess what...
I was right.
(I'm sure Amy and anyone else who really knows me will tell you that I always think I'm right but this is totally different).
What seems so ridiculous about it to me is that I am still so stinkin' worried and freakin' out about it. The Lord has blessed me with EVERYTHING I have always dreamed of and now I don't think I have the faith that I can handle it! What's wrong with me!?!
I am completely serious about that. EVERYTHING.
It's taken a lot of twists and turns, ups and severe downs, but the perfect picture I had of my life 10, 15, even 20 years ago is what I'm living right now. I just feel so undeserving of that.
I just pray that in my weakness the Lord will continue to display His incredible might. If you read this PLEASE pray that I will be able to be used as His instrument. As a husband, father, and now a teacher, I really hope I just don't screw up so bad that it affects all the other lives I might have an impact on.
Our God is more amazing than I can say! Not so long ago I was at a point I was screaming at Him asking if he really cared about me. I know now He was giving me an opportunity to realize that I can do nothing without Him.
Thank you God for loving me. Thank you God for your grace. Thank you God for your infinite wisdom and ability to use people who are broken and worthless without you!
Okay, that was my "venting" for now. I do sincerely covet your prayers and I pray God blesses your life as much as He has mine!
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
It's a Girl
I already love her and I think first thing when she's born I'll let her know just how much I'm going to protect her and then ask forgiveness upfront for the times when it might get a little out of hand.
Anyway, just wanted everyone (the 5 people that read this) to know. Look out world Ella Grace is coming!
Thursday, June 19, 2008
She's Gonna Be Such A Good Mom
Seriously, I am so blessed to have found the love of my life who is the woman I am SO excited will be the mother of our children. I can't even begin to express how thankful I am that Amy is able to (seriously) understand and love me. Lemme tell ya, that is quite feat in and of itself. Everyone who really knows me can attest to it.
The way she loves me shows me more each day how completely and unconditionally she will love our children. I didn't know that kind of love really existed until Amy.
Yeah, I know, I said before I'm a Momma's boy (see Mother's Day post) and I have experienced unconditional love from Mom, but it's so much more than I ever knew could be. (Mom, I know you're gonna be reading this and I know you understand what I mean).
My prayer is that I can love and care for Amy and this baby that is on (his/her) way even half as much.
Oh yeah, I am scared out of my mind.
I have NO DOUBT that Amy will be an amazing mother to our child. I just have so many fears about being the kind of father that this baby and our family needs.
The real reason for this post is to humbly plea for anyone and everyone who reads it to please pray for us as we venture into the realities of parenthhood. I DO know the Lord will provide for and take care of us but I am severely struggling with the reality of knowing that I have been called by Him to take care of and provide for this family.
I know, that sounds sooooo contradictory. Please pray that I can give it to Him and will place this child in His hands.
Thank you for enduring my pleas and thank you for praying for us.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
It's Finished!!!
Anyway, here are some before and after pictures. Enjoy!
