Friday, July 18, 2008


There must be a lot going on for me to post two blogs in three days, huh?

Do you ever wonder why God would want to bless you in ways you never thought possible?

In the past three days I have found out that we're having a baby girl (Ella Grace is her beautiful name!) and I have been given the job that I have always wanted. Is it just me or does it seem like I have been given soooooooooooo much more than I deserve?

I said in my initial post and titled this blog saying that the only thing we can plan for is to be surprised. Guess what...

I was right.

(I'm sure Amy and anyone else who really knows me will tell you that I always think I'm right but this is totally different).

What seems so ridiculous about it to me is that I am still so stinkin' worried and freakin' out about it. The Lord has blessed me with EVERYTHING I have always dreamed of and now I don't think I have the faith that I can handle it! What's wrong with me!?!

I am completely serious about that. EVERYTHING.

It's taken a lot of twists and turns, ups and severe downs, but the perfect picture I had of my life 10, 15, even 20 years ago is what I'm living right now. I just feel so undeserving of that.

I just pray that in my weakness the Lord will continue to display His incredible might. If you read this PLEASE pray that I will be able to be used as His instrument. As a husband, father, and now a teacher, I really hope I just don't screw up so bad that it affects all the other lives I might have an impact on.

Our God is more amazing than I can say! Not so long ago I was at a point I was screaming at Him asking if he really cared about me. I know now He was giving me an opportunity to realize that I can do nothing without Him.

Thank you God for loving me. Thank you God for your grace. Thank you God for your infinite wisdom and ability to use people who are broken and worthless without you!

Okay, that was my "venting" for now. I do sincerely covet your prayers and I pray God blesses your life as much as He has mine!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

It's a Girl

Oh no, I'm in trouble. If you ask my sister she will readily tell you how protective I have always been of her. I got a little ridiculous at times I admit. So how much more am I gonna be absolutely nuts about this little girl on her way!?!

I already love her and I think first thing when she's born I'll let her know just how much I'm going to protect her and then ask forgiveness upfront for the times when it might get a little out of hand.

Anyway, just wanted everyone (the 5 people that read this) to know. Look out world Ella Grace is coming!